where to begin, so many changes are happening to myself and husband.
our first baby is about to be born any day and were excited about that.
and right behind him or her is his or her brother or sister. this pregnancy has been a journey in itself. its had its highs finding out there's multiples to its lows having every doctor . hospital and friends call us crazy. well were not crazy. and I truly believe these babies well change the world. anyway besides the babies trying to come out my moms birthday is tomorrow. and honestly at a loss on what to get her?. right now I have my own business I work from home and sell avon. and I'm thinking of ordering off my website for my mom but we well see. I'm excited to become a mom, it has been my dream since I was 19/20. but most doctors said it couldn't happen. well I'm here proving them wrong all thanks to god!. yes I'm giving it all to god I trusted him and knew he bless me and my husband in his time. but through my journey is the pregnancy I have gained strength , not like physical but like emotional . I have been proudly talking to my friends about these babies . and I have gained a lot of support to. I have to say I'm a bit sad that my dad wont be here to meet his grandson/granddaughters. but I know he's watching over them. well I'm going to end it here. thank you for reading.
Tuesday, October 3, 2017
Thursday, September 21, 2017
new life
so I now have a new life, since the restraining order September 4th 2009. what no one tells you is they expire . and about almost a year ago my ex boyfriend messaged me on Facebook. wanting to meet up. I politely declined his offer and said for him to move on and that I have since moved on and gotten married. remember the second guy I told you about?. well I married my rescuer <3.
well apparently my ex boyfriend wasn't happy about that said he no longer has respect for me or him. so I hit the block button and haven't heard from him since thank god!.
me and my husband have been through so much since 2015 . but we love where were at now.
and I am pregnant. but it is not a normal pregnancy, I'm going through a very rare pregnancy ,
its called a cryptic pregnancy . and 1 in 2500 women go through one. and its caused from imbalance hormones. mine I believe is caused from pcos. and I have had honestly mixed reactions a lot of friends don't believe me or my husband about this pregnancy and think were doing it for attention. well I'm here to set the record straight were not. I'm pregnant with 3 babies . I have tried to tell doctors hospitals etc but sadly no one believes me, they call me crazy :(.
with these pregnancies there's little to no hcg in the mothers system because each month I get a period. but its not like a normal period its mostly spotting/light bleeding. because of this period each month the tests never are positive. I know the exact date this started September 23 2015. yes you read that right.
I pray one day that this pregnancy is recognized . but until then me and my husband along with other women going through this are on our own.
since moving out of new jersey my dads side of the family has disowned us, no phone calls text messages etc. they blame me for my parents house going into foreclosure.
supposedly my sister says their just mad how I left the house , but its not my fault I had 30 days to find a place to live for me and my husband.
well apparently my ex boyfriend wasn't happy about that said he no longer has respect for me or him. so I hit the block button and haven't heard from him since thank god!.
me and my husband have been through so much since 2015 . but we love where were at now.
and I am pregnant. but it is not a normal pregnancy, I'm going through a very rare pregnancy ,
its called a cryptic pregnancy . and 1 in 2500 women go through one. and its caused from imbalance hormones. mine I believe is caused from pcos. and I have had honestly mixed reactions a lot of friends don't believe me or my husband about this pregnancy and think were doing it for attention. well I'm here to set the record straight were not. I'm pregnant with 3 babies . I have tried to tell doctors hospitals etc but sadly no one believes me, they call me crazy :(.
with these pregnancies there's little to no hcg in the mothers system because each month I get a period. but its not like a normal period its mostly spotting/light bleeding. because of this period each month the tests never are positive. I know the exact date this started September 23 2015. yes you read that right.
I pray one day that this pregnancy is recognized . but until then me and my husband along with other women going through this are on our own.
since moving out of new jersey my dads side of the family has disowned us, no phone calls text messages etc. they blame me for my parents house going into foreclosure.
supposedly my sister says their just mad how I left the house , but its not my fault I had 30 days to find a place to live for me and my husband.
Monday, September 18, 2017
part 2 of fresh start
September 18th 2017
so on September 4th 2009 after I got my permanent restraining order from my ex boyfriend Ricky,
my life changed dramatically I wasn't fearful of him attacking me anymore, or stalking me or physically hurting me.
eventually me and Eli realized we wanted to be more then friends, and decided that day to start dating. I know seems kind of quick but you cant stop true love. my parents at the time thought I was crazy because I just gotten out of a almost 2 year abusive relationship and thought it was to soon.
so one day while we were at sams club food shopping they wanted to sit down and talk to me . so we had a long talk and I agreed to help them out with certain bills, and I told them in return I wanted to be allowed to be with Eli . so they said fine but first they wanted to have a meet and greet at the house with him. mostly they wanted to make sure he wasn't going to take advantage of me. so I remember like it was yesterday :) . my dad took me to pick Eli up at his house , and he decided to spend the weekend over. so Eli was super sweet and bought my dad a Elvis guitar ornament , my mom a betty boop ornament my sister a twilight saga bracelets and for me he got me some buttons .
that weekend he also met the rest of my family , aunts uncles cousins . everyone really loved eli and said that we made a cute couple. we got engaged December 25th 2009 and he actually surprised me. he told me he was getting me a promise ring . so I went over to his place and we exchanged gifts and next thing I know he gets down on my one knee and proposed to me. I was shocked and surprised and didn't answer him for a good 5-10 minutes. finally I said yes and called my mom right after and told her. she was excited my dad wasn't though not at first. he thought our engagement was to soon, but what my dad didn't know was me and Eli were friends for 2 years prior to us dating / getting engaged. so shortly after our engagement my dad had Eli over for a talk a big talk. so that weekend me and dad and mom went to pick up Eli and bring him over my parents house. and we ended up having dinner and after dinner we all sat down to talk. my dad told Eli about my money that I get each month and said in order to go through with this marriage he had to sign a pre nup stating he would not take advantage of me and have his own income. so he ended up signing it and we got it notarized . after that we talked about where we were going to have the wedding. and at first we were thinking my parents house but realized there wouldn't be enough parking. so then we were thinking of pa but my parents didn't like that idea because it was to far. not to mention we had a hard time picking a date. first was going to be our dating anniversary which our real one is august 4th 2009. but it was during the week and my dad wanted it on a weekend. then we were thinking maybe the fall but we couldn't decide between October or November . so eventually we chose august 27th 2010. and finally picked a venue which was villari's lakeside in Sicklerville NJ . we had a outdoor wedding under a gazebo .
and it was beautiful . but it was also rushed because most of Eli's realities were late. after the wedding my mom and dad got us a hotel room for 3 days . and it was fun , and next thing I know we went back home to live with my parents. we got annoyed because they never let us have alone time. eventually my dad's health took a turn for the worst 2012 . and sadly on my birthday may 17th 2012 we lost my dad. and about a few weeks later Eli lost his grandfather . after my dad died I went through a ton of depression , anxiety just being lonely. me and my mom got stuck being the head of the households . and we took turns taking care of the bills and each other . mostly I was taking care of her . eli helped out to . but in the fall of 2014 my mom moved out she said she felt like she was to much of a burden and that she wanted me and eli to have our own lives. and so she moved into a nursing home in Deptford nj. and me and eli stayed at the house for another year. until I fell behind on the mortgage and sadly lost the house to foreclosure . they wouldn't take my payments without my mom living there. so we had 30 days to pack up a entire 2 story house. and me and eli tried our hardest to go through everything by ourselves. we did ask for help from my relatives but they were to busy with their lives. they came the last week of us packing up the house and about to move. and took what they wanted and left. so we got our new place me and Eli in Chester pa. it wasn't much but it was a place to live. when we first moved in everything was great about almost a year living in chester pa everything changed once a particular family moved in. they let their kids do whatever they wanted. and one day one of the kids broke our house window. we called the police and reported it and they told us to let our landlord know , so we did . we ended up moving out April 9th 2016. but we gave the landlord plenty of notice. so we then got a apartment which is where were at now in brookhaven pa. and we love living here our neighbors our nice. in fact just today our neighbor picked us up from save a lot and gave us a ride home.
so on September 4th 2009 after I got my permanent restraining order from my ex boyfriend Ricky,
my life changed dramatically I wasn't fearful of him attacking me anymore, or stalking me or physically hurting me.
eventually me and Eli realized we wanted to be more then friends, and decided that day to start dating. I know seems kind of quick but you cant stop true love. my parents at the time thought I was crazy because I just gotten out of a almost 2 year abusive relationship and thought it was to soon.
so one day while we were at sams club food shopping they wanted to sit down and talk to me . so we had a long talk and I agreed to help them out with certain bills, and I told them in return I wanted to be allowed to be with Eli . so they said fine but first they wanted to have a meet and greet at the house with him. mostly they wanted to make sure he wasn't going to take advantage of me. so I remember like it was yesterday :) . my dad took me to pick Eli up at his house , and he decided to spend the weekend over. so Eli was super sweet and bought my dad a Elvis guitar ornament , my mom a betty boop ornament my sister a twilight saga bracelets and for me he got me some buttons .
that weekend he also met the rest of my family , aunts uncles cousins . everyone really loved eli and said that we made a cute couple. we got engaged December 25th 2009 and he actually surprised me. he told me he was getting me a promise ring . so I went over to his place and we exchanged gifts and next thing I know he gets down on my one knee and proposed to me. I was shocked and surprised and didn't answer him for a good 5-10 minutes. finally I said yes and called my mom right after and told her. she was excited my dad wasn't though not at first. he thought our engagement was to soon, but what my dad didn't know was me and Eli were friends for 2 years prior to us dating / getting engaged. so shortly after our engagement my dad had Eli over for a talk a big talk. so that weekend me and dad and mom went to pick up Eli and bring him over my parents house. and we ended up having dinner and after dinner we all sat down to talk. my dad told Eli about my money that I get each month and said in order to go through with this marriage he had to sign a pre nup stating he would not take advantage of me and have his own income. so he ended up signing it and we got it notarized . after that we talked about where we were going to have the wedding. and at first we were thinking my parents house but realized there wouldn't be enough parking. so then we were thinking of pa but my parents didn't like that idea because it was to far. not to mention we had a hard time picking a date. first was going to be our dating anniversary which our real one is august 4th 2009. but it was during the week and my dad wanted it on a weekend. then we were thinking maybe the fall but we couldn't decide between October or November . so eventually we chose august 27th 2010. and finally picked a venue which was villari's lakeside in Sicklerville NJ . we had a outdoor wedding under a gazebo .
and it was beautiful . but it was also rushed because most of Eli's realities were late. after the wedding my mom and dad got us a hotel room for 3 days . and it was fun , and next thing I know we went back home to live with my parents. we got annoyed because they never let us have alone time. eventually my dad's health took a turn for the worst 2012 . and sadly on my birthday may 17th 2012 we lost my dad. and about a few weeks later Eli lost his grandfather . after my dad died I went through a ton of depression , anxiety just being lonely. me and my mom got stuck being the head of the households . and we took turns taking care of the bills and each other . mostly I was taking care of her . eli helped out to . but in the fall of 2014 my mom moved out she said she felt like she was to much of a burden and that she wanted me and eli to have our own lives. and so she moved into a nursing home in Deptford nj. and me and eli stayed at the house for another year. until I fell behind on the mortgage and sadly lost the house to foreclosure . they wouldn't take my payments without my mom living there. so we had 30 days to pack up a entire 2 story house. and me and eli tried our hardest to go through everything by ourselves. we did ask for help from my relatives but they were to busy with their lives. they came the last week of us packing up the house and about to move. and took what they wanted and left. so we got our new place me and Eli in Chester pa. it wasn't much but it was a place to live. when we first moved in everything was great about almost a year living in chester pa everything changed once a particular family moved in. they let their kids do whatever they wanted. and one day one of the kids broke our house window. we called the police and reported it and they told us to let our landlord know , so we did . we ended up moving out April 9th 2016. but we gave the landlord plenty of notice. so we then got a apartment which is where were at now in brookhaven pa. and we love living here our neighbors our nice. in fact just today our neighbor picked us up from save a lot and gave us a ride home.
Sunday, September 17, 2017
fresh start
September 17th 2017,
I have been through a ton in my life,
I have been engaged twice . but ended up marrying the second guy.
I grew up in northeast Philadelphia in a small place called holmesburg.
I have one younger sister and her name is Candice . growing up we didn't always get along obviously. and I think one thing that annoyed me about her was she always would never leave me alone.
growing up my parents were typical I guess you could say middle class family, living pay check to pay check much as me and my husband do now. my dad was a very hard worker growing up he always had 2 sometimes 3 jobs especially around the holidays, he wanted to make sure everyone had a great Christmas no matter what.
my mom was the typical stay at home mom she took care of me and my sister and made sure we had what we needed . I was upset at times because a lot through my life I was constantly compared to my sister , which at the time got on my nerves. because I'm not her I'm me .
what I mean by that is example she was very good at math and always in honor roll student and pretty much got better grades then me. I on the other hand was special ed and struggled with math , spelling, reading. and my dad always would bring up why cant you be like your sister and just know your math.
I had torturing but half the time my mom would forget to take me and eventually they dropped me.
after high school when I graduated I didn't know what I wanted to do with my life. so I decided to get a job . and my one goal was to save up to buy a camcorder
so I got a job at pizza hut as a dishwasher thanks to my job coach . and eventually I had to leave that job because I was moving to a different state.
so I moved to south jersey Westville to be specific and it was a big adjustment. for one I couldn't just walk everywhere , and two the buses weren't always reliable so I had to ask my dad for rides if I wanted to go out.
I stayed single up until 21 and then I met a guy name Ricky.
Ricky and I started out as friends but then we tried dating. and that went into me moving out within three months of being together . before we started we were friends online for about a year. once I moved in with Ricky things changed a lot .
we argued because he lied about everything, told me he didn't drink or do drugs.
to my surprise he did!.
I'll admit I experimented and tried it to but realized it wasn't for me. after I quit drinking all the time and drugs I realized he was the wrong person for me. but I stayed because I didn't want to go home and live with my parents forever.
so I stayed with Ricky almost 2 years but he became abusive physically and emotionally him almost killing me was my last straw. my then friend Eli and his friends came to rescue me and about a day later Eli went to work and texted me I had to leave because my ex was in media looking for me.
so I did it I left but not knowing where to go I decided first I tried my aunt Kathy at the time to live with her she said no call your parents. so I texted my sister In the cab ride and told her everything. I went home and that was the start of better things to come. with the help of my parents I got a restraining order against my ex Ricky . my temporary one was for about a week and a few weeks later I went to court and got my permanent one . I'll never forget September 4th 2009 was the best day of my life.
I have been through a ton in my life,
I have been engaged twice . but ended up marrying the second guy.
I grew up in northeast Philadelphia in a small place called holmesburg.
I have one younger sister and her name is Candice . growing up we didn't always get along obviously. and I think one thing that annoyed me about her was she always would never leave me alone.
growing up my parents were typical I guess you could say middle class family, living pay check to pay check much as me and my husband do now. my dad was a very hard worker growing up he always had 2 sometimes 3 jobs especially around the holidays, he wanted to make sure everyone had a great Christmas no matter what.
my mom was the typical stay at home mom she took care of me and my sister and made sure we had what we needed . I was upset at times because a lot through my life I was constantly compared to my sister , which at the time got on my nerves. because I'm not her I'm me .
what I mean by that is example she was very good at math and always in honor roll student and pretty much got better grades then me. I on the other hand was special ed and struggled with math , spelling, reading. and my dad always would bring up why cant you be like your sister and just know your math.
I had torturing but half the time my mom would forget to take me and eventually they dropped me.
after high school when I graduated I didn't know what I wanted to do with my life. so I decided to get a job . and my one goal was to save up to buy a camcorder
so I got a job at pizza hut as a dishwasher thanks to my job coach . and eventually I had to leave that job because I was moving to a different state.
so I moved to south jersey Westville to be specific and it was a big adjustment. for one I couldn't just walk everywhere , and two the buses weren't always reliable so I had to ask my dad for rides if I wanted to go out.
I stayed single up until 21 and then I met a guy name Ricky.
Ricky and I started out as friends but then we tried dating. and that went into me moving out within three months of being together . before we started we were friends online for about a year. once I moved in with Ricky things changed a lot .
we argued because he lied about everything, told me he didn't drink or do drugs.
to my surprise he did!.
I'll admit I experimented and tried it to but realized it wasn't for me. after I quit drinking all the time and drugs I realized he was the wrong person for me. but I stayed because I didn't want to go home and live with my parents forever.
so I stayed with Ricky almost 2 years but he became abusive physically and emotionally him almost killing me was my last straw. my then friend Eli and his friends came to rescue me and about a day later Eli went to work and texted me I had to leave because my ex was in media looking for me.
so I did it I left but not knowing where to go I decided first I tried my aunt Kathy at the time to live with her she said no call your parents. so I texted my sister In the cab ride and told her everything. I went home and that was the start of better things to come. with the help of my parents I got a restraining order against my ex Ricky . my temporary one was for about a week and a few weeks later I went to court and got my permanent one . I'll never forget September 4th 2009 was the best day of my life.
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