fresh start

September 17th 2017,
I have been through a ton in my life,
I have been engaged twice . but ended up marrying the second guy.
I grew up in northeast Philadelphia in a small place called holmesburg.
I have one younger sister and her name is Candice . growing up we didn't always get along obviously. and I think one thing that annoyed me about her was she always would never leave me alone.
growing up my parents were typical I guess you could say middle class family, living pay check to pay check much as me and my husband do now. my dad was a very hard worker growing up he always had 2 sometimes 3 jobs especially around the holidays, he wanted to make sure everyone had a great Christmas no matter what.
my mom was the typical stay at home mom she took care of me and my sister and made sure we had what we needed . I was upset at times because a lot through my life I was constantly compared to my sister , which at the time got on my nerves. because I'm not her I'm me .

what I mean by that is example she was very good at math and always in honor roll student and pretty much got better grades then me. I on the other hand was special ed and struggled with math , spelling, reading. and my dad always would bring up why cant you be like your sister and just know your math.
I had torturing but half the time my mom would forget to take me and eventually they dropped me.
after high school when I graduated I didn't know what I wanted to do with my life. so I decided to get a job . and my one goal was to save up to buy a camcorder

so I got a job at pizza hut as a dishwasher thanks to my job coach . and eventually I had to leave that job because I was moving to a different state.
so I moved to south jersey Westville to be specific and it was a big adjustment. for one I couldn't just walk everywhere , and two the buses weren't always reliable so I had to ask my dad for rides if I wanted to go out.
I stayed single up until 21 and then I met a guy name Ricky.
Ricky and I started out as friends but then we tried dating. and that went into me moving out within three months of being together . before we started we were friends online for about a year. once I moved in with Ricky things changed a lot .
we argued because he lied about everything, told me he didn't drink or do drugs.
to my surprise he did!.
I'll admit I experimented and tried it to but realized it wasn't for me. after I quit drinking all the time and drugs I realized he was the wrong person for me. but I stayed because I didn't want to go home and live with my parents forever.
so I stayed with Ricky almost 2 years  but he became abusive physically and emotionally him almost killing me was my last straw. my then friend Eli and his friends came to rescue me and about a day later Eli went to work and texted me I had to leave because my ex was in media looking for me.
so I did it I left but not knowing where to go I decided first I tried my aunt Kathy at the time to live with her she said no call your parents. so I texted my sister In the cab ride and told her everything. I went home and that was the start of better things to come. with the help of my parents I got a restraining order against my ex Ricky . my temporary one was for about a week and a few weeks later I went to court and got my permanent one .  I'll never forget September 4th 2009 was the best day of my life.